Episode #204 || Resetting Your Journey || Rayandria Jiles

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This week’s episode features, Ms. Rayandria Jiles.
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Author | Ex-Fornicator | Ex-Serial Dater
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Tune in as she shares with us her story about how God pressed the reset button on her journey.
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Enjoy!
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A Special Note From Jaz

Queen Ray, it was such a great pleasure to interview you! Thank you for sharing your journey with us here on RYJ. “God is with us like a mighty terrible one!” You have truly inspired me because the fire of God to set these captives free in this world, is in you and I felt it, heard it and it transcended through our conversation! I thank God for all that He is doing inside and outside of you. You’re such a blessing and beautiful and unique and I pray that never ceases. Keep on being you Queen and never back down or be afraid of the things God has called you to and to do!
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God Bless You!
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Jaz💖👑
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What is the challenge you faced before God pressed the reset button?

“The challenge that I faced before God pressed the reset button on my journey was coming out of a relationship that I really didn’t want to come out of.
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I was discontent in the relationship but I really didn’t want to leave. I could have stayed there and kept it as is but that was really the challenge, the relationship because I knew it was something that God did not want for me. I knew it was something that God did not destine for me.
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That situation was exactly what happened before God pressed the reset button.” 
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What obstacle did you overcome/testimony? What was the pivotal moment in your life thus far that changed everything?

“Coming out of the Air Force. I got out of the Air Force in 2015. I had been in a whole bunch of dysfunctional relationships during that time. Coming back home to California was no different. Obviously, if I’m broken I’m going to enter something broken.
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In this particular relationship, this guy approached me and we just so happened to start talking. One of the things he said that took me for a loop was “your salvation is beautiful.”
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Right when he said that it was kind of like a hook.
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I don’t that was necessarily intentional for him to do it in that way. When he made that statement I thought it was very interesting because nobody has ever said that to me before. That’s deep!
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It kind of threw me and I wanted to know more about this guy. What is he about? That’s kind of how our relationship started. It basically started with him evangelizing to me. That kind of snowballed into a complete mess.
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As you know we serve a very jealous God. I think his purpose was to get me to pay attention to who God was. He just so happened to use my salvation to do it.
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Remember He’s going to do it by any means necessary. So, however, He needs to do it that’s what He’s going to do. Whether He has to do it through a relationship. God is going to do whatever He needs to do to get your attention.
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The guy that I ended up getting into a relationship with, he was so-called Christian. He spent a good amount of his time Evangelizing to me. Fortunately for me, it turned out for my good. Unfortunately for him it didn’t because it drew me away from him ultimately.
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There’s no way you should be missionary dating.
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He asked me out on a date. He brought me a single purple rose.
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I literally could have cried.
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How did this come about? Why is this happening to me? On top of him being an attractive man.
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Wow! All of these things are going great.
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We just ended up in a relationship because we were spending so much time. It was like every waking moment that I got that was free, we were spending time together.
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I began to listen and pay attention. One of the first issues I encountered with him was finding out that he had lied about his age.
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[Lies on top of lies] If you’re lying about your age what else are you lying about?
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By this point, the soul-tie was already formed because I had been letting him into intimate spaces.
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The boundaries were already crossed at that point. It doesn’t take very long to form a soul tie.
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You’re craving the attention and intimacy that Jesus wants to fill.
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There was nothing I can really say and when you’re in a soul tie you’re just like okay whatever.
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I was really into this guy.
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You almost get lost up in a web of lies. At that point, you can’t even decipher what’s real and what’s fake.
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One of the moments that comes to my mind was when my grandma was really sick. I asked him about taking us to the airport and I remember calling him. I remember him hanging up in my face. I think we had gotten into it about something else before that. He said, “oh yeah so you don’t need the ride no more, right?”
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At that point, that really threw me because my grandma is sick, basically on her deathbed and you’re hanging up in my face? Who is this person?
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I think that that person on the other line was just somebody that no longer had interest in me because of the sanctification process taking place in our relationship.
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The closer I got to Christ, the less attracted he was to me because what attracted us to each other is brokenness.
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Once you’re in a soul tie it’s very hard to get out of it.”
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How has that shown you the path God has prepared for your life? Steps along your journey.

“I knew that God had been dealing with me to get out of the relationship but I just really didn’t want to.
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Lord, we’ve crossed some lines but we didn’t cross all of them.
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God said, “You thought that you knew this person but first of all, you don’t even know you!”
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God was really dealing with me. A lot of the issues stemmed from me. The primary was that I didn’t know Rayandria. Because if I was in Christ then I wouldn’t have ended up in that situation.
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God began to explain to me that I didn’t know me and that I didn’t know my boyfriend at that time.
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We’re both counterfeits.
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The last night he laid in my bed I said, “Who is she?” I said it like four times. You’re not even paying attention to me.
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This night is about to be his last night. I had made up my mind. I had too many unanswered questions.
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I ended up being able to see that not only was I am empty vessel was so was he.
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I do think that hell used both of us as weapons against each other.
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After the breakup was over I was done. I said I could no longer put myself in these type of situations.
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That was one of the most mentally anguishing relationships.
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As soon as he walked out the door I blocked his text messages, his phone calls and haven’t talked to him ever since.
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From that point on I went into my healing process!
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Because even during the relationship I began to question God about, what does this really mean?
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What did God think about relationships?
What did God think about dating?
What did God think about fornication?
What did He think about sex?
What did He think about all of those things?
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As I began to question God, God began to give me answers. I began to go through a healing and a restoration process of transforming my mind and renewing myself into who Christ had really called me to be.
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Take myself through deliverance. Studying. Not watching tv. Studying the Word of God. I just started praying stuff like, ”God if this not your will break it up. If this is not your will make this man manifest.”
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When I would pray, things would happen. Of course, it crushed me in the end but that’s what I had been praying for.
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As I was taking myself through healing, as I was learning about deliverance, as I was learning about restoration, God just placed it on my heart to write Raw Wounds. The different heartbreaks that I had went through. God was dealing with me about my identity, in these different men or these different women had played a role in what that meant to God. How it had effect God and how it had affected my life and how it affected those particular people.
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It was all kind of crashing down at once and that’s how Raw Wounds was formed.”
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Can you share your favorite scripture?

2 Corinthians 5:17 [NKJV]
17 “ Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.”
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That’s one of my favorites because God literally wants to come in and restore people and make them brand new creatures. Not what you’ve been through. I know what we hear on the radio is one thing but you’re not what you’ve been through and if you continue to try to live like that to try to form an identity in that you’re going to stay broken. But Christ wants to make us new creatures. That’s exactly what He did in my story.
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God can turn trash into treasure!
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Jeremiah 20:11 [NKJV]
11 “But the Lord is with me as a mighty, awesome One.
Therefore my persecutors will stumble, and will not prevail.
They will be greatly ashamed, for they will not prosper.
Their everlasting confusion will never be forgotten.
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“That one is so special to me because God is larger than every enemy. God is larger than any piece of persecution. I think as a Christian it’s an intimidating thing to come out with our testimony’s. When God has called you to come out and speak against something He’s given you the authority to do so. So the Lord is with me like a mighty terrible one! God is not a force to be reckoned with, especially if His children are being obedient!
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He is not a passive Father.”
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What do you do daily to let your light shine?

I like to point people towards Christ. They may come with questions or just general conversation and in those times that’s the opportune moment to literally plant a Godly seed. I get so much satisfaction out of that. It happens all the time. Uber drivers, friends, associates, strangers and in that time people see there’s something different about you and that’s the light of Jesus!
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Name (3) things that you would tell your younger self?

  1. You’re worth the wait
  2. Follow the commandments of God
  3. Don’t second guess the Word of God
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Why do you love you some you? What makes you extraordinary?

AUTHENTICITY. All of us are unique and I think as we walk with Christ He gives us so much clarity that everything that is unlike Him it literally falls off. All of your shame, all of your condemnation, all of those things that you’re afraid to speak about Christ comes in like a wrecking ball and He crushes it. It’s just so powerful.
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Let’s do this God! There so many captive people that need to BE SET FREE! They need authentic voices, not halfway preaching it. No, you need somebody to come and tell you the TRUTH!
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The truth, not just their situation but them as a person and that stuff hurts because you have to be willing to look in the mirror. I would love to sit here and tell you all of my broken relationships including the last one was their fault. It was not just their fault. It’s 50/50.
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If you’re out of the will of the God you will pay. PERIOD!
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Recommended Books/Resources

The Invisible Bond by Barbara Wilson
Raw Wounds by Rayandria Jiles
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10 Seconds of Motivation

Don’t be so anxious to drop your pants for a few moments of false intimacy. God is intimate, so don’t be so quick to give yourself away. IT’S FALSE INTIMACY & GOD HAS MUCH MORE IN STORE!
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